"You know that feeling you get on a Sunday where you just have the whole day to yourself, and it's been great, and then you remember you have to go to school the next day, so it ruins the rest of the night? I have to go home tomorrow, and so I've got that feeling. It's like Sunday night."
-Peyton from One Tree Hill
(I don't go to school Sunday through Thursday. Only Friday and Saturday, but you get the point).
No matter what, I always get that "Sunday night feeling." Every weekend. It never fails. I always feel sad, angry, frustrated, and even happy at times. It seems like that all I can think about is the week ahead, when I know I should be concentrating on the exact moment. I know that I should be happy, because a) I don't have school and b} I don't work. For whatever reason, I can't help but shake the blues. Seriously, the only thing that I want to do is lay on the couch with the television on and computer on my chest. Daily I always say, "I never get enough time to do what I want" (insert whining). Whether that is true or not, it certainly feels that way. With graduation coming around the corner, these feelings are getting even worse. I'm just ready to put that behind me and move on. It will be such a relief, and I know I will be a happier person because of it.
I am just running on empty.
I am ready for my weekends to be free.
I am so over having to do papers and assignments.
I am ready to be done.
These feelings combined with other feelings that I am having, is not necessarily making it easy for me to be "fun." I have all these ideas and plans on things I want hubby and I to do. However, when the time actually comes, I don't want to. I feel like being lazy and using what free time I have to regroup.
Then again, hubby always cracks jokes or makes funny faces and tries to make me laugh, in order for me to forget about my "feelings" for awhile. I mean, the "feelings" are still there, but I guess there really is no point to think about it constantly. Worrying doesn't do anything productive. It just causes you to lose a moment, where you could have been happy. (Must continue to tell myself this). Hubby always reminds me that I don't want to regret not doing something or look back and wish I had. He also reminds me that once I get to wherever we planned go, I will have fun (which is true).
I am glad that hubby is encouraging me to get out and have more fun. If it wasn't for him, I probably would just be locked in my house, until I had to be somewhere. It seems like "free time" is rare for me, and that something is always coming up. There are so many things I have to do and want to do, I just want to be able to fit it all in and still be happy. Sometimes it is just impossible.
But you know what? When I do actually go out, when I don't want to, I always have fun. Plus, I never look back and regret it. Sometimes, it's hard getting to that point, but after I do, we have a blast.
I know that "Sunday night feeling" won't last forever, but there so many more that I can take. With the help of the hubby, it makes it a little more bearable. With the encouragement of my hubby, it helps me realize that that "Sunday night feeling" will (soon) be a thing of the past.
I know that "Sunday night feeling" won't last forever, but there so many more that I can take. With the help of the hubby, it makes it a little more bearable. With the encouragement of my hubby, it helps me realize that that "Sunday night feeling" will (soon) be a thing of the past.



























































