J is for...

Well, last night, the guy I have been dating said he didn't see where things were going between us. He said that he didn't feel the chemistry between us like he should. I said, I wished you had told me that earlier before things gotten like they were. He then told me, basically it was my fault. That is TOTAL bullshit. I told him I wanted to wait. He was the one who kept saying suggestive comments and trying to escalate the situation. BULLSHIT! I'm really good about reading people, but him, I couldn't figure out. This whole situation doesn't make sense. Everything he said to me is totally opposite than the "chemistry" thing that he talked about last night. I am through with this shit. I don't even care. I was very pissed. Still, sounds like that he got freaked out about what happened. That the case, then way to go...immaturity. Either way, it is over and done with. Now, I can move on and not waste my time with someone who obviously could not give a damn about me. He said he likes me and enjoyed hanging out. We can be friends (not like I heard that one before). Be honest. If we are going to be friends and hang out, cool. If not, just be honest. Seriously.

Update

He called!
Hopefully things will continue to be good and get back to the ways things were :)

One of the worst feelings in the world...

Something happened this weekend...I will spare the details. Let's just say it was the single most embarrassing moment of my entire life. It was also extremely awkward. There's really not a situation that can make me feel awkward, but this was definitely one of them. It also made me feel bad about myself. I wanted to just crawl under a rock and disappear. It wouldn't have been so bad, if I have been comforted afterwards. The picture above is is how I felt. That is not a good feeling, especially when a person you are dating, makes you feel like that. Well, that picture is an exaggeration. I just felt different types of emotions: worried, stressed, etc. I just didn't know how he was feeling about the situation.

Bourbon Slushies...Yum!

Bourbon Slush

Ingredients
2 cups Jim Beam® Bourbon
1 large can frozen orange juice
1 large can frozen lemonade
1-1/2 cups sugar
2 cups hot water with 4 tea bags
8 cups boiling water

Forever and Almost Always

Here's a song that I can totally relate to right now. It's called "Forever and Almost Always" by Kate Voegele.


So the story goes on down
The less traveled road
It's a variation on
The one I was told
And although it's not the same
It's awful close, yeah

In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing

So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh, that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head

Oh, and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well, you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would
When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook

Because you're mine
Forever and almost always
Oh, and I'm fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care

Oh, oh,
What am I still doing here
Oh, oh,
It's all becoming so clear

You'll be mine
Forever and almost always
It ain't right
To just love me when you can, Oh
I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care
Forever and almost always
No it ain't right
To just love me when you, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you care