On my own, or at least that's how it seems

I honestly don't know how much more that I can take living here in Pikeville. It just seems that I'm never going to get out of this place. 120 days until graduation, which is on May 10. It just seems forever away. I know people say it will go by quick and that I should enjoy while I can. If I had my way, I would pack up all my stuff and be gone from here this weekend...for good. I'm very independent, and I finallly want a place that is my own.

I really don't believe my mom is all that supportive of my acting. She seems to think that it is no big deal and that it is just something to do. I don't know if she realizes that it is a BIG deal to me, it is something I enjoy, and something I hope to make a career out of one day.

She's only has seen two films I have done. She probably would be overly critical of my performance instead of being supportive. Just a guess. It would be nice, for once, for her to be happy that I get acting roles or be excited about the opportunities I get. It seems that she just doesn't care. It is really hard at times when you are the only one believing in yourself. You, yourself, can't really be your support system.

I hate staying in Pikeville on the weekends. I usually am in Lexington every other weekend. I don't even know if she knows what I do down there, but I am actually there for a reason. This weekend and the following weekend I will be in Lexington. My mom says after that I have to stay at home for awhile. She is so worried about my car being serviced, since it is that time. I said, well if I have to be in Lexington for a particular reason, I am going to be there. She says school is first, then work, and then movies. I disagree. School is important, but movies is my passion. My job, I have now, can wait. It doesn't pay enough, plus I am quitting the end of April or the first of May.

My mom isn't that strict, not at all. She is in just one of her moods. She will let me go to Lexington when I need to be there.

It would be just nice if she would act the least bit supportive, or at least sound interested in what films and projects I am working on.

After I come back from Spain, I'm getting ready to pack up the U-HAUL! Lex-Vegas here I come, the sooner the better! I have waited for this for so long. I can't wait. I can't wait to be constantly surrounded by people who share the same hopes and dreams as me.

It is that simple.

Why can't life be as simple as a pop song?

"Some people say it'll never happen
And we're just wasting time
But good things come when you least expect it
So I don't really mind"

"Some things are meant to be and will be there
And when the time is right
Even though I know that
I swear I wish it was tonight"


HAHA! That is just how life is...unpredictable, which is great. It is a mystery, keeps you guessing. Basically, keeps us on our toes. It is a new year to start over...to create a new beginning...to leave 2007 behind. Why is it do we have to wait until January 1 to make a change. We just have to live life day by day, one day at a time. We shouldn't let yesterday use up too much of today. We need to put the past behind us, learn from it, whatever. After all, there are no regrets in life, just lessons. If life doesn't go our way, just say 'fuck it' and try the best to move along. Never settle for anything but the best!

mi vida y españa en 2008

mi vida y españa en 2008
Current mood: adventurous
Category: Travel and Places
I am so excited about this coming year. Many many promising things are headed my way.

1. Acting roles in movies :)

2. Graduating with two degrees.

3. Getting my own place in Lexington this summer.

4. Going to New York City...hopefully!

5. Going to Spain...five days after I graduate.

I am also very happy to be informed that my phone works internationally, in 120 countries to be exact. YES! Anyways, this is really all I am looking forward to at the moment.

Here is my plans for Spain:

Day 1: Fly overnight to Spain from Cincinnati


Day 2: Madrid
Arrive in Madrid
Take an orientation tour of Madrid
Visit the Prado


Day 3: Madrid

Take a guided tour of Madrid:
Puerto del Sol and Plaza Mayor
Visit the Royal Palace
Day 4: Toledo • Consuegra • Granada

Travel to Toledo
Take a guided tour of Toledo:

Toledo Cathedral
Church of Santo Tomé
St. Mary's Synagogue
Travel to Consuegra
See Don Quixote's windmills
Continue on to Granada
Day 5: Granada • Costa del Sol

Take a guided tour of Granada:

Alhambra
Cathedral and Royal Chapel
Travel to Costa del Sol
Day 6: Costa del Sol • Morocco

Enjoy a free day in Costa del Sol
Optional: Morocco

Day 7: Seville

Travel to Seville
Take a guided tour of Seville:

Alcázar
Seville Cathedral
Barrio de Santa Cruz
Take a walking tour of Seville:
Giralda Tower
Torre del Oro
Plaza de Toros
Optional: Seville Flamenco Evening
Day 8: Córdoba • Madrid

Travel to Córdoba
Visit the Mezquita
Take a train to Madrid

Day 9: Madrid

Enjoy a free day in Madrid
Optional: El Escorial and Segovia

Days 10-12: 2-DAY TOUR EXTENSION

Days 10-12: Madrid• Barcelona

Travel on an AVE train to Barcelona
Take a walking tour of Barcelona:

Las Ramblas
Take a guided tour of Barcelona:
La Sagrada Familia
Barrio Gótico
Barcelona Cathedral
Visit Parque Guell
Depart for home

We Are Broken

"We Are Broken"-Paramore

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me
Yeah

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
It came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole