doctor me :)

Well, I really don't know what to write. A lot of things has happened in the past month. Good things. I just don't care to share with the rest of the world : )

Anyways, let me update you on my plans after graduation. I'm going to go to graduate school and get my master's degree. If I get into a doctorate program, I will do that. I really want to do Neuropsychology. Forensics interests me too. I think I would much rather work in a hospital rather than with criminals. Anyways, I am either going to have a PhD or PsyD. If all goes well, I will be a doctor by the time I am 27-29.

I Wanna Be a Soapstar

This past weekend in Lexington, Kentucky, the traveling tour for I Wanna Be a Soap Star! was in Triangle Park. Out of the 200 people that was there, they randomly picked 30 people. Those 30 people had to improvise a given scene. After that, eight were chosen to perform one of three monologues. I don't know what happened in round three. It was from 11am-3pm. It wasn't to be on the show, I Wanna Be a Soap Star! The winner from Lexington, KY and the winners from the other four cities will fly out to Los Angeles, California. There in California, they will meet with the casting director and get to attend the finale taping for I Wanna Be a Soap Star! The thirty people in Los Angeles will compete against each other for a walk-on role on Days of Our Lives. Next year, they said they might come back to Lexington, Kentucky to audition for the actual show, I Wanna Be a Soap Star! I did get to meet I Wanna Be a Soap Star! judge, Michael Bruno, and Cameron Mathison (Ryan Lavery) from All My Children.

Here is one of my pics: (the rest are in my photo album)

at some point, you have to make a decision...

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross.

Well, it is my senior year and I graduate in May 2008. I will graduate with a B.A. in Psychology and a B.A. in Communication. Like I said before, I wish the Communication degree was replaced with at least a Biology minor. Well, it is too late for that. So, I have a plan. I will graduate in May 2008. I will continue to go to Pikeville College a 5th year but have a status as a "special student." I am not degree seeking, since I already have two. I just want my prerequisites to get accepted into PCSOM. If all goes well, I will be accepted in the fall 2009. That's the plan. I have to start no later in Spring 2008 to at least get MATH 113 Precalculus Algebra or MATH 114 Trignometry out of the way. After that I'm taking BIO 151 w/ lab, BIO 152 w/ lab, BIO 250 w/ lab, PHY 223 w/ lab, PHY 224 w/ lab, CHE 113 w/ lab, CHE 114 w/ lab, CHE 313 w/ lab, and CHE 314 w/ lab. If I need to, which I might anyways, take one or two in the summer of 2008.

I've decided. *looks in the mirror* I am going to medical school. I hate boring desk jobs. I hate 9-5 jobs. I hate jobs that are tedious and menial. I don't like doing the same thing day after day after day. I want a career, not a job. Oh yeah, some people do not take me seriously. I don't know what they think. They seem to see me as this ditzy girl or whatever. Wait, and I will prove them wrong. These aren't the reasons I want to be in medical school though.

I want to use my potential to its fullest. I want to make a difference in people's lives.

Back in third grade at Halloween, I dressed up as a surgeon. In 5th grade, I was in the top five students in math, science, and history. In 8th grade, I was selected to go to King's Island on Math and Science Day because I had pretty good math and science scores. Also, for about four years I went to Pikeville College's Math and Science Camp. I loved the dissection part! Anyway, in 8th grade I was accepted into the University of Kentucky's "Young Women In Science" internship. It lasted for three years for three summers. Later on, in high school, I got accepted into the PEPP program. I turned it down : *( I have regretted it ever since. In 10th grade, we had to memorize all the bones and muscles and point them out on the human skeleton. No problem! On the ACT, I did best on the science part.

A lot of my friends are going to be doctors.

I know it will be hard these next two years, and even harder the four after that. These next two will be hard. For the simple fact, I will be discouraged a lot. I will have to keep on keeping on. I have to believe in myself and surround myself with people that believe in me. It will be easier as I actually start on it. As soon as school starts back, I need a fool-proof game plan.

What's three more years in Pikeville? I've been here already 21 years.

Oh yeah, one more thing. If you haven't learned anything in life, you need to know this: "Never say never."

Seriously?

*No offense to engaged or married people or etc... This mostly really pertains to people in college. Okay. There is one thing I started to notice this past year-everyone is getting married. I mean WTF? Is there something in the water? If you are in love or whatever, that is awesome. I'm truly happy for you, I really am. However, I am not that girl. The girl who gets married while still in college. I value my education and the chance of becoming something one day. I do not want anyone standing in my way or having someone jeopardizing that. I am not saying that marriage will do that. I am just saying I have a plan. It works for some people and others it doesn't. I have a lot of friends that are in their mid 20's, early 30's, or whatever. The majority, if any, are not married. Having a goal on when one plans on getting married is stupid. There is no way to plan on when you are getting married. The only way you can is if you are already in a relationship. If you are not in any relationship, you do not know what is going to happen. All these surveys say, what age do you want to get married by? Some say, 25, 30, or whatever. WTF? Are there people out there trying their damnest to make their goal happen? If so, how about let things pan out like they're supposed to happen. I guarantee there will be better results. Marriage is scary. Marriage is so final. It is supposed to be permanent. Nowadays, the divorce rate is 50/50. That is really not good odds. It is even higher in younger couples and those couples that live together. Not everyone is in this category. Just referencing the statistics. There are couples out there that beat the odds, which proves you can make it. I just don't see how people meet and say they love each other after only knowing each other like 2 months or something. You can't really know someone in that short of a period of a time. You may think you know someone. There are also times when some are in love with the idea of what this person is to them. I'm a girl, and I am never going to say 'I love you' to a guy first. It is their job. It is not an old-fashioned thing. It is just a how things are supposed to be thing. One of the dumbest things I heard...I overheard that someone was willing to go where their significant other went if they had one when the time come. Why change your whole life or rearrange everything for them? I just don't understand. Adjust your life around theirs? Give up on your dreams or goals? I don't know. I have never been in a situation where I have had to do this. Maybe I would, maybe I wouldn't. Who knows? I don't want to have to rearrange my life, and I wouldn't expect someone to do the same for me. When I get married, I at least want to have a bachelor's degree or master's degree, plus some means of supporting myself. Marriage is already hard enough. I don't want to add in financial issues into the mix. Marriage takes work. Marriage is definitely not going to happen in the next year or two or three for me. I am perfectly fine with that. I just know that it will happen one day, and I want to make sure it lasts : )

is it too late? never. it is never too late.

Is it too late? Well, my college years are coming to an end. About 9 months from now, I will be a graduate of Pikeville College. As of now, I don't know where I will be this time next year. However, I do know I will either be in graduate or professional school. I feel that it is too late to apply for medical school. I have none of the math or science requirements that most medical schools require for admission. If I had started my freshman year with my intended major, psychology, maybe it would have helped me to realize, I should major or minor in biology as well. I was a sophomore, with only one psychology class behind me, enrolled in PSY 323. It interested me so much, but scared the hell out of me. That's when I decided to switch my major from Psychology to Communication. Now, I lack two classes and my B.A. in Communication is completed. One down, one to go. I liked it. Communication majors have a stigma attached to them. People say you major in it, because it is easy. Yes, it is. I just should have stuck with Psychology, and then eventually picked up Biology. I am pretty good at the science part, but I suck at the math part : ( Some people just see a pretty face. I really don't feel like some take me seriously, or believe I am intelligent. Well, I am going to prove them wrong! Towards the end of the Spring 2007 semester, I realized I wanted my Psychology degree back. I talked to PC's registrar, Gia, and I realized it was possible that I could major in it. Everything falls into place, once again. I'm sure as this semester goes on, I will make plans for after graduation. It just sucks, if I was to go to medical school, I would have to still stay in college to work on the requirements. Then what happens if I don't get accepted? I would rather get my master's first. Everything might work out, and I might get my Psy.D. or maybe Ph.D. Either way, one day, I am going to be called Doctor.