losing hope

I am really starting to get pissed off once again. People read my blog but don't leave a fucking comment. Anyway...

I'm starting to lose hope. I'm also starting to lose faith in myself. I really don't believe I can do anything. highly doubt that I will amount to anything later on in life. I am just really discouraged. I just sit there and look off into the distant and think. I just think about how things got to be like they are and what I can do to fix or change them. I just think about how unhappy I get at times. I think about how nice it would be to have someone. I really don't need a guy to validate me or the need to feel "complete." I don't really need to depend on another person. I can do things for myself. It would just be nice to have someone. I am just going to give up hope. There is no point. I hate being disappointed, but that is basically what life is-disappointments. Life never goes the way you want. After meeting so many people who turn out to be assholes, you really probably wouldn't want to pursue anything. Most likely, it would turn out the same way. I just wish I could meet one person that doesn't think of me as a piece of ass. You may think you know somebody, but no one really knows anyone.

my new favorite word...

..is douchebag. I've been using it for the past month or so. Thanks to all the douches who allow me to use this word. You're awesome. Lord knows I have encountered many guys that are douches lately.